Sharing Jesus

When I hold Baby Caleb in my arms, when he gives me the biggest smile, when I watch him peacefully sleeping, I feel a deep urge in my heart to be with him forever.

I so desperately want Caleb to know the Lord and to love Him well. I want him to seek God's will first in His life. I want Caleb to be in heaven with us.

I know that salvation is not inherited-that someday Caleb is going to have to make that decision to follow Christ on his own. I also know that it's super important that Ross and I cultivate a household that honors and talks about the gospel often.

Caleb is only 6 months old- but he's heard the salvation story often. You may think I'm a little crazy, but I want discussions about the Bible and God to be commonplace in our house. So whenever I sin (which I am discovering happens an awful lot...) I tell Caleb why I do. Here's what that looks like:

The other day, Caleb was cranky. He was tired and illogical. He was screaming at me, pulling my hair, scratching my face. I was getting majorly frustrated- very fast. In a moment of weakness, I sinned, and in a very loud voice told him to "Just go to sleep!" (The fact that my voice was loud didn't necessarily make it a sin- but I can tell you that the anger I felt in my heart was definitely sinful...)

I immediately felt regret and told Caleb I was sorry. I then told him that Mommy wishes she never sinned, but that isn't possible. I told him how God made the world and He made it good. He made us and we were good. But we chose to not obey God and let sin into the world. And sin is what makes things that were meant to be glorious and beautiful, not so glorious and beautiful anymore. I told him that everybody who has every lived sins, except Jesus. Then I tell him that Jesus was God's son- all God and all man- and that he lived a perfect life. Jesus died and took our sins upon Himself. If we believe in Him we can go to Heaven and live with Jesus forever. Meanwhile, here on earth, we still sin but God is at work in us to make us more and more like Jesus.

Now, Caleb was crying through most of this gospel presentation, but it's still important that I share it. He needs to hear these words- these life-giving words. He needs to know the story and just how beautiful it is. So I've committed to sharing it with him whenever I can.

Now the question, for myself, is: How come I don't feel that sort of conviction with every person I meet? Every one of us is fallen and headed for Hell. How come I don't give that presentation to people in the grocery store, at the bank, at the mall? How come I don't talk about it with people that are close to me- aunts and uncles, friends? How come I don't even remind fellow believers about the beauty of the gospel?

Here's the truth and it's ugly: I don't love people the way that I should. I love Caleb and my love for him is deeper than it is for almost everyone. My pure desire to share Jesus with Caleb comes from a deep mother's love for him.

So a new prayer for mine is that I'd share the gospel much more openly. That God would give me a heart like Him, that loves each and every person as a dear, sweet child.

Will you pray that prayer with me? And will you seek to share the gospel with people. Start with your family- your kids and your spouse. And then let the Lord lead you from there.

Finding the Time

One of my favorite excuses for not doing something valuable, but something that requires discipline, is "Well... I just can't find the time." I have been known to use this for everything from consistent Bible reading, to exercise, to staying connected with people, to vacuuming, to blogging. : )

All of us listen to this lie at some point in our lives. And that is exactly what it is. A lie.

While we may be busy and have LOTS of things going on in our lives, they're not all equally important. I'd like to challenge you to take a look at the things you do throughout the day and find ways that you can fit in something of eternal value- specifically Bible reading or focused prayer.

Here are some classic time-wasters:

- Facebook

- Television/Movies

- Time spent feeling sorry for yourself, or jealous of others, or disappointed about your circumstances.

The first two are not inherently evil. However, I have to constantly check myself. I've decided I don't want to open Facebook before I open the Word. FB is fun and a connecting tool, but it will not feed my soul. It will not last for eternity. For a while, I had a posty note on my laptop that simply said, "NO FACEBOOK until you've read the Word."

(Honest confession: Some days that meant no Facebook and no Bible reading. Our sinful hearts can be so wayward at times....)

The last one, obviously, is inherently evil, but how much time do we waste- utterly waste- thinking things that aren't true? Our hearts should be rejoicing in the Lord and the grace of the gospel- not discouraged by all the thing we want but don't have. If you have time to whine, gripe, complain and mope, you have time to pray : )

So I encourage you to reflect on how you spend your time. It wasn't long ago (like a month or two) that I was convinced that I didn't have time to read my Bible and exercise every day. I did have a baby, you know! Now I can say that I read the Word every day and use the elliptical for 20 minutes 6 days a week.

Next stop- a consistent, peaceful, focused prayer time. I have time for it... I just have to find it : )

Gettin' Fit

I'm not quite sure what has come over me, but in the past couple of months, I've really wanted to kick my bad habits and nurture good ones. Perhaps it's the understanding that there is a little one in my midst who watches my every move and will, one day, be replicating lots of what I do. It's what spurred on the desire to be in the Word everyday, and to be praying without ceasing. It's also what has encouraged me to get serious about getting fit.

I've wanted to lose some weight for a long time now, but kept coming up with excuses. Some lame. Some legitimate. One of my more legitimate (I think...) excuses was that I knew that getting fit meant some serious dedication. If I was going to get serious about something, shouldn't it be something of more eternal value? I mean, come on, this body, fit or not, is staying here. Shouldn't I spend my time exercising and equipping my soul?

I think this is a legitimate concern. If you only have 15 minutes of free time in a day (we ALWAYS have more than that, we just don't like to admit it...) don't you think it is better to spend it in the Word than at the gym?

I also thought losing weight would mean spending a lot of time thinking about ME- my weight, my exercise, what I was eating, etc. That didn't seem very holy to me.

But if you remember the two verses that are the heart of this blog- you will see that losing weight can be done with a pure heart for Jesus.

Remember when we talked about Colossians 3:17? Exercising on the elliptical, eating a balanced diet, counting calories- all of it can be done for His glory if we are mindful of Christ and thankful to God.

Then there's our Titus 2 passage. One of the virtues in self-control. That's what led up to this commitment to getting serious about getting fit. Yes, losing weight would mean thinking a lot about me, but it would also mean giving up some tough sins- using food to satisfy all sorts of desires (most of which can be satisfied in Him) and choosing to be extravagant instead of prudent.

It's only been a few days since I started this challenge, so I'm still finding joy in the hard work : ) I know that self-control and discipline is not easy, but is how Christ is calling us to live. He certainly lived a life of control and discipline, didn't he?

So now, a challenge. Two actually. Would you consider praying for me as I seek to be self-controlled? Would you hold me accountable and ask me on a Sunday morning how things are going?

And.... if you, like me, could benefit from a bit of self-control in action, will you consider how you can get fit for Jesus? I'd love to share with you, specifically, what I am doing. Perhaps we can share a light lunch together : )

ALL Scripture!

If you recall, about a month ago, I decided to get serious about my Bible reading. I got an account with Bible Study Tools and started a chronological reading plan.

I am pleased to tell you that I have stuck with that commitment to read the Word everyday. It hasn't been perfect. I don't always feel like my heart is in the right spot or that I am gleaning everything that I can from each Scripture, but I am being faithful and the Word is being planted. And we know that God's Word always brings about fruit!

One of the trickier parts about a Bible reading plan is that they tell you what to read. (Huh? That doesn't sound tricky to me!) What I mean by that is you can't just read the warm, fuzzy passages of Scripture. I started in Genesis- which was wonderful- lots of good stories. I even discovered some things that I hadn't noticed before, even in stories I had read dozens of times.

But then, I went to Job. Some parts of Job are sooooo tedious! (I'd like to write a full post on that later....) Then I went to Exodus, which starts with a good story, and ends with a good story, but has blueprints in the middle of it. It's hard to apply tabernacle measurements to your life...

Last night at youth group, I spent time talking with high schoolers about their Bible reading experiences. We talked about how it seems hard to make time for it, hard to understand, hard to have a hunger and thirst for the Word.

With all this hard stuff, I keep coming back to 2 truths:

1) 2 Timothy 3:16 & 17 "ALL Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work."

2) Isaiah 55: 10 & 11 "As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it

without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it. "

So honestly, I don't know why some things are in the Bible and how we are supposed to apply them to our lives (I'm going to get the commentaries out, though...)

But I do know that it is to our benefit to read His Word and it brings Him great glory when we treasure it. ALL of it : )

Dancing Through the Decades!

I hope you are planning on joining us Friday night for

Dancing Through the Decades.
The evening begins at 7pm at Trinity Bible Church.

FREE Childcare will be available.

Here are a few reasons why I am excited:

- A chance to dance with my husband.

- A chance to dress up.
I am NOT going to look ridiculous that night : )
I have a dress that looks very Jackie Kennedy.
I'm excited to look classy.

- An opportunity to have fun with other Trinity members.

Hope to see you there!

Let's Get Together (yeah, yeah, yeah)

In case you have forgotten, one of the best things you can do for your heart is to share it with others.

Last week, I had the opportunity to sit down with a fellow mom and just talk about life. We talked about our kids and the joy and the frustration that they bring. We talked about our husbands and the joy and the frustration that they bring : ) We talked about making decisions for our family based on what other people think we should do. We talked about "mommy guilt"- this false sense of guilt that mommies get when they see others being "better" moms. (You know, the ones who breastfeed, use cloth diapers, make their own baby food, home school their kiddos, all that good, but not imperative stuff...)

Those few hours were so refreshing to my heart. I encourage you to hang out with somebody soon and share your heart with them. If that seems like too much to cram into your schedule, write "Coffee Night!" on your calendar on Thurs. March 10th. Join a bunch of women from 7-9pm at Trinity House. It'll be fun, guaranteed!

My heart was also encouraged Saturday evening. Ross and I hosted two young couples- one that has been married for a couple of years and one that will be married in a couple of months. They loved on Caleb, asked a billion questions about babies and shared lots of laughs with us. It was so good for Ross and my hearts. It is good to have friends and it is good to share time with them.

I also encourage you to think about some people that your family can spend time with together. Invite people over for dinner, pull out a board game and share life and laughs.

You'll be glad you did : )

Marriage Conference

Maybe you've noticed the small blurb in the church bulletin or the note in the weekly update e-mails. Trinity is joining Sovereign Grace Church in Gilbert for a marriage conference April 29th & 30th. We know it will be at the church in Gilbert and that Gary and Betsy Ricucci will be teaching. But we don't know many other details... yet : )

Maybe you are like me and enjoy learning how to make your relationships the best they can possibly be. Perhaps you also do your best to guard your marriage- to protect it from the schemes of the evil one. You want to make your husband happy and you want him to be happy in you, so you are constantly checking how your communication, conflict resolution and physical intimacy are working. Maybe you're not as anal as me : )

Perhaps your husband is like Ross. Very go-with-the-flow. Things are fine. They're always fine as long as I say they are. We don't need to think about details. We said we'd love each other forever so we do. It's all good.

(FYI: Most of our conflicts come from this difference in attitude. Me: Very aware and concerned. Ross: Very relaxed and well, unaware...)

I've been mentioning to Ross how I would like to go to this conference. How we could leave Caleb with a sitter for the night. How he and I could go to Gilbert Friday evening, stay the night in a hotel and finish up the conference Saturday morning. (Does this sound refreshing and romantic to you? It sure does to a new mom!!)

Do you know what he said? He wanted to know who I was going to go with!! He said he'd be happy to stay in a hotel with me, but who was I going to go to the conference with?!?

This conversation happened pre-emotional breakdown. After that, he's been much more sensitive. He said he'd go with me : )

Perhaps you have a husband like mine, who really gets nervous when you start talking about making your marriage better. And maybe yours, like mine, would rather make fun than make any changes.

Would you join me in praying for our husbands? That's what I have been doing. Praying that Ross would see that our marriage is a precious gift from God, but not one that is infallible- not one that is perfect- but one that needs constant care and attention.

Maybe you're the one who is nervous about going. I've skimmed the Ricucci's book and it looks excellent. Like other Sovereign Gracers (Ross and my loving term for them : )) they talk about how the gospel applies to marriage. It's solid biblical stuff. I'm sure it will be encouraging, not burdensome.

I'm excited for couples at Trinity to have this opportunity to step back from the busy world and to recommit themselves to each other and to Christ. I'm sure God is happy, too! : )

P.S. We really don't know many details yet. When we do, I'll be sure to post them here.