I've Counted up the Cost...

In the past week, I've had the opportunity to listen to 2 great speakers and to one awesome band. God is using them to speak to my heart- convicting it and asking me to change.

And I want to.

But I don't.

'Cuz I'm scared.

Our God is a BIG God. He does BIG things. He does strange and unconventional things. His ways are above our ways... and they don't always make sense to us.

But when God works- awesome things happen.

He brings life to dead places.

He saves and redeems hearts.

Something inside me wants to be a part of this BIG, unconventional, spiritual, inspiring work. And something else inside wants to hide in the corner.

The unknown is scary!

These thoughts and fears are revealing to me my need to get to know this BIG God better.

I need to be in the Word even more- looking for His mighty hand at work.

Trusting that He hasn't changed and that while He may lead His people to dangerous places, they are safe in His arms.

I need to take steps of faith outside my comfort zone. He will use me and every little experience that I have of listening to His voice and obeying will give me more personal examples of his faithfulness and trustworthiness.

The awesome band that I mentioned earlier (Rend Collective Experiment is their name) has a song called "The Cost." Caleb and I danced to it the other day and I just broke down in tears. I so want to sing this song from my heart, but a part of me is still fearful.

I encourage you to listen to the song here.

Think about the lyrics. Can you sing them honestly?

I'm in the process of counting up the cost.

I know that He is SO worth it : )